No one seems to be home,
and the note on the door
says “Gone,” yet what are words
these days but things
just slung around? Still,
we’ve traveled such a distance.
If they’re gone, it would be
not because we love them—
in fact they’re hard to love—
but because, you know,
we’re the kind of people
who think a step forward
is a step well taken.
Life’s too short, we always say,
and don’t put off until tomorrow
what you can do today.
We pass these things on—clues
for living well and long.
We suspect they’re here, hiding
as they often have behind “Gone”
and “Beware,” and other signs
that we know are really saying,
“Find us, please.” They’re always
sort of lost. And this house
of theirs, this house is weird,
as if it was built with floor boards
that wouldn’t tongue, wouldn’t groove.
Something about it feels forced.
On their walls is some framed mish
and mash, which they call art.
The door’s unlocked.
They don’t appear to be here—
closets emptied, refrigerator unplugged,
and a note on the kitchen table, addressed
to us, which they cannot possibly mean.
It was afternoon. Not a hair
of her long blond wig moved
as they cruised in his convertible
the town’s back streets and avenues.
At stop signs people could notice
the fixity of her smile. At red lights
a disturbing pallor, something off.
So he knew that to really appear
to have a beautiful companion
he had to hit the open road,
and keep moving
at just the right speed.
Soon they were in the country.
The day was bright, warm.
He wanted to keep driving forever,
never stop, gas up
the way those planes do in mid-air.
Earlier, he had dressed her
in a black, off-the-shoulder Versace,
and for a moment feared
what the overly-stylish must—
that she looked oh-so-close to sad.
But now it was just him and her
in his ’96 Camaro, and around them
unjudgmental cows and horses
in the verdant fields.
Everything was as it seemed, and what
could be better than that? He rested
his hand on hers. He told her
what she meant to him, and more.
Under the cover of dark, he finally drove
home, opened for her like a gentleman
the passenger door, carried her in,
removed, then hung up her clothes.
He’d return her to the store window
in the morning. But now how chaste
she looked in her nightgown—
and ahead of him nothing
to look forward to but sleep
and the sweet misery of his dreams.
The Astronauts and You
Two days after you died, Marie, the astronauts
went out in sad spectacle, no more or less
dead than you, but exploding, no time to think
about or feel how the body disintegrates.
Though you died without high drama,
the heart is selfish about grief,
and in the intimate village of loss, where notions
of country grow small, our hearts make their own
history. You were our citizen, Marie, our first
lady of no nonsense, who when asked
how you were, always answered “terrific”
as if from a deeper self that didn’t lie.